Fear
This is a very difficult subject, because no one wants to be honest about it. And that’s okay. We whistle past the cemetery… or we wear gear that proclaims we got No Fear, dude. Whatever gets us through the night.
Still, it doesn’t hurt to take the boogeyman out of the closet every once in a while and contemplate the sheen on his empty collarbones. Fear. The fear of pain, of death, of failure, of making a mistake that harms or kills someone else, the fear of embarrassment, of loss, of… I could go much deeper, but it is not my goal to give fear too much celebrity.
The fact is… it’s just another day. It is always just another day.
I have had people rush up to me, panicky and not knowing what to do. And I’ve gone into the situation, made an assessment, and then done what was necessary. No fuss, no problem, no fast breathing. That is because I knew… it was just another day. I could only do what I could do. I might screw it up, but if I did, that would be that, too. No need to worry about it. Just be wide awake, be aware, be smart, be yourself. After all, it’s just another day.
The moments do not take on a special characteristic because there is an emergency situation and people are injured or unconscious. My heart rate does not need to change. I don’t have to get excited. I just need to keep breathing normally and calmly put one foot in front of the other, and walk through it because, as you know, it’s just another day.
However. To be honest, I must admit that I have an advantage. A hole card that trumps everything. I know and deeply respect my Lord and Redeemer, who is Jesus, the Christ. I know I get to see Him one day, although I cannot tell you what will happen after that. That will be up to Him.
So I just can’t get too overwrought about this day, which will pass. If I cannot trust Him to take care of me today, I must be quite a liar about trusting Him for eternity. Seems to me my job is to calmly do the best I can, and leave the results up to Him. Who am I to know what the Lord of Creation wants to do with a certain situation? I’ve seen instant healing, and I’ve seen death that was timely, and death that seemed to me to be totally untimely… but again, who am I to say what should be?
As long as I’m given days, I’ll try to help others, and if I can, show Him to them. I’ll determine to not sweat the small stuff, and leave the big stuff like life and death to Him. And then, someday, I’ll have a day unlike all the others.
But until then, it’s just another day. Might as well enjoy it.
